**WARNING.if ur depressed. or feel like crap.
or dont want your mood to be affected.
PLEASE refrain from reading this post.
dont say i didnt warn you.
FINALLY.
but feelss @#$%$#.
@_@.
i feel that i havent tried my best.
didnt do fantastically well.
dont really know what im doing.
feeling depressed.
SIGH.
that i take uber long to do coding.
that im severely lagging back.
and by the looks of it never gonna
catch up soon.
SIGHHHHHH.
i dunno what to do anymore sia la.
phy also like #_#
maths also #_#
coding also like #_#
T.T
dont want to drop jap.
also cannot drop tuition.
but everything's falling apart...
then somemore still got weird things
happen.
that i dont have the energy to decipher.
or register, or think about how to
tackle.
oh WTH.
SIGH.
now i know the significance of
what you like =/= what u can do well.
sometimes i wonder why i didnt
and refused to go arts.
and then i also dunno why
im persistent in wanting to not change course.
to survive through this.
probably cause i chose it.
myself.
after much opposition.
i managed to get in.
and i dont want to go off without a fight.
我不甘心。
maybe im being unrealistic?
i hope not.
i never felt like this before.
i used to think, and know.
that im not working hard enough.
that when i drop everything and mug,
everything will be ok.
but now. im mugging everyday.
still not ok.
SIGH.
and my vicious cycle of emo doesnt
seem to be ever ending.
-i dunno what im doing anymore.
